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The Bookbelt | Tuesday
We're the youngest generation of Prices. …You'd be the next generation…
Nina had done a pretty good job bothering Duke on Sunday and losing herself in flying and attempts at picking locks (she could manage basic ones as a pony—it was a victory that only she really cared about) and then on Monday she'd thrown herself headlong into moping about the lack of wings.
(Which, being clear, was a huge tragedy.)
But by the time Tuesday rolled around, Miss Verity's words, which had stuck and lingered and rolled around in the back of her head had left her sleepless and anxious in ways she wasn't quite sure how to face head on.
That was how she wound up at her shop, before the wee hours of the morning really got going, well before dawn.
Like.
She'd been an orphan. Then she'd gotten herself adopted. She loved Prompto fiercely, wildly, unreasonably (anything that hurt him was going to get a bookbelt to the face and she didn't know if he realized just what that meant) but…
But…
Somewhere along the line, Liam's fake-dadness had become… less and less fake until she was pretty sure that it was only fake now because how could you adopt someone already adopted and because… well… once you said those words, and meant them, how could you come back from it?
Nina was… pretty sure he was her dad. Like, her actual dad. The one that came running when she was scared and who cheered her on when she had a brilliant idea and who smiled just because she, like, existed. And that was wildly frightening to her, something she teetered over a precipice of, because what if he changed his mind? What if she did? What if it—
Wasn't real?
Better to not say and just love and hope and twist herself into knots about it because she wanted him to be her dad but she didn't want to lose Prompto and wasn't it selfish to want both? Wasn't it being unbearably, impossibly greedy?
Then, Miss Verity just cutting through all the complications with her easy acceptance of the fact that, somehow, someway, she was family.
You'd be the next generation.
And, sure, they'd been talking about ghosts and loopholes and…
"Aunt Mary," she said, trying out how it sounded, said aloud. It sounded pretty nice. It wasn't scary to say since, like, people called people Aunts and Uncles all the time that they weren't related to. It was fine.
"Dad." That sounded nicer, though her cheeks flamed at saying it, embarrassed even though no one was there to hear her.
"Mom?" That one was uncertain, suiting the way she felt about it. She really didn't know Miss Verity that well. Miss Verity hadn't, didn't, belong to that title, aside from as a person adjacent to Liam and that… well… that wasn't enough.
She already had one adoptive mother where it was transactional, and she didn't think Miss Verity would like her calling her mom—unless Nina meant it. (Or if they were undercover, but that was different. The same rules didn't apply.)
But it was fun to imagine, in the quiet empty hours as she cleaned and thought and wondered.
By the time the shop was open, the place was sparkling clean and Nina was reading in one of the squashy, comfortable chairs at the front.
I love you, she texted Prompto, five minutes before she knew his alarm was supposed to go off. She didn't know if he'd answer. He was so busy these days, but she hoped it made him smile anyway.
Then she went back to her tea and her books and the ghosts of thoughts that plagued her.
The Bookbelt is Open.
[That Nina was at the shop early and cleaning is FB, what she was saying is NFB, please!]
Nina had done a pretty good job bothering Duke on Sunday and losing herself in flying and attempts at picking locks (she could manage basic ones as a pony—it was a victory that only she really cared about) and then on Monday she'd thrown herself headlong into moping about the lack of wings.
(Which, being clear, was a huge tragedy.)
But by the time Tuesday rolled around, Miss Verity's words, which had stuck and lingered and rolled around in the back of her head had left her sleepless and anxious in ways she wasn't quite sure how to face head on.
That was how she wound up at her shop, before the wee hours of the morning really got going, well before dawn.
Like.
She'd been an orphan. Then she'd gotten herself adopted. She loved Prompto fiercely, wildly, unreasonably (anything that hurt him was going to get a bookbelt to the face and she didn't know if he realized just what that meant) but…
But…
Somewhere along the line, Liam's fake-dadness had become… less and less fake until she was pretty sure that it was only fake now because how could you adopt someone already adopted and because… well… once you said those words, and meant them, how could you come back from it?
Nina was… pretty sure he was her dad. Like, her actual dad. The one that came running when she was scared and who cheered her on when she had a brilliant idea and who smiled just because she, like, existed. And that was wildly frightening to her, something she teetered over a precipice of, because what if he changed his mind? What if she did? What if it—
Wasn't real?
Better to not say and just love and hope and twist herself into knots about it because she wanted him to be her dad but she didn't want to lose Prompto and wasn't it selfish to want both? Wasn't it being unbearably, impossibly greedy?
Then, Miss Verity just cutting through all the complications with her easy acceptance of the fact that, somehow, someway, she was family.
You'd be the next generation.
And, sure, they'd been talking about ghosts and loopholes and…
"Aunt Mary," she said, trying out how it sounded, said aloud. It sounded pretty nice. It wasn't scary to say since, like, people called people Aunts and Uncles all the time that they weren't related to. It was fine.
"Dad." That sounded nicer, though her cheeks flamed at saying it, embarrassed even though no one was there to hear her.
"Mom?" That one was uncertain, suiting the way she felt about it. She really didn't know Miss Verity that well. Miss Verity hadn't, didn't, belong to that title, aside from as a person adjacent to Liam and that… well… that wasn't enough.
She already had one adoptive mother where it was transactional, and she didn't think Miss Verity would like her calling her mom—unless Nina meant it. (Or if they were undercover, but that was different. The same rules didn't apply.)
But it was fun to imagine, in the quiet empty hours as she cleaned and thought and wondered.
By the time the shop was open, the place was sparkling clean and Nina was reading in one of the squashy, comfortable chairs at the front.
I love you, she texted Prompto, five minutes before she knew his alarm was supposed to go off. She didn't know if he'd answer. He was so busy these days, but she hoped it made him smile anyway.
Then she went back to her tea and her books and the ghosts of thoughts that plagued her.
The Bookbelt is Open.
[That Nina was at the shop early and cleaning is FB, what she was saying is NFB, please!]
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But that he did was why he was her dad.
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At least he had not yet taken so many levels in Dad that he responded with 'life's not fair', because ugh.
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"Sorry," she said, a little bit contrite. "Force of habit?"
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"It's still a bit mixed up," a lot mixed up, "in my head," she warned. "But like, what if it's not real....?"
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She wanted them to stay but life wasn't simple and smooth. Promises were easy to make and hard to keep.
"Like, I know that a piece of paper can't stop someone from changing their mind. Prompto could stop loving me. Maybe he won't want me as his sister in a decade. But... but there is that piece of paper and it... helps."
It was like a security blanket.
"But... but you can't adopt someone twice over and... that's... like, a lot to..."
To ask? To hope for?
She was so selfish, wanting it all.
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Yes, there was the possibility that this wouldn't last forever, but let's put it this way: if Liam were to leave, it wouldn't be by choice.
But also... "Says who?" Liam challenged, in regards to that paperwork.
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"The law," Nina said, blinking at him. "I've been doing research on it here and in Insomnia."
Though that was a trick in and of itself because she did not need anyone nosing in on why she was looking up things like that.
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Nina made... a lot of money off of Foomy.
"Same with the bookshop. Since e-readers are so big these days, most of the revenue from the shop comes from special orders from other places---a lot of worlds and times like our quaint little Earth stories. So even though this world isn't Prompto's world, like, when I got adopted there, my records were updated here."
But not her tag. Alas.
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"I still think it's worth looking into it," Liam said. "If that's something you want. But it might also involve getting you some legal paperwork that says you exist in Verity's world, too."
To be honest, he kind of liked the idea.
"But paperwork or not," he continued. "I'm not going anywhere. You can tell that I mean that, right?"
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"Yes," she admitted, with a tiny smile. "I know you mean that."
Now. He meant it now.
Her tiny smile grew slightly, though, as she added, "I don't mind getting legal ID in another world. I could, like, make it a goal to see how many places I can get ID in........"
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But the only way she'd see that is with time. And plenty of reinforcement.
"Given the access we have to various realities via Fandom, you could end up with quite the collection," he said, clearly amused.
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And Nina would totally be the kind of queen to do that. Let's be real.
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Another point in the Dad column: he paid attention to things like who her (off-island) Parents' Weekend guests were!
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"Yeah," she said, smiling. "Like, it might not happen, but in at least one universe, it does."
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