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Turtle & Canary; Monday [04/29].
Summer's recent bout of squirreling had gone on for well over a week now, and so she'd become increasingly insistent about Stark not dragging her around everywhere, and this caution was proven wise when, not very long after he left to go to the clinic, she was, in fact, back to herself again, in the comfort of her own home, as it should be. And since a glance at her phone told her immediately that it was Monday, she figured she'd take care of a few things, have a nice long shower, and do the most boring and terribly normal thing for a human to do: go to fucking work.
Especially since she'd heard from the other squirrels that Prompto had turned into an animal, too, which meant it was just Apu and the usual animals in the store, and, sure, the store pretty much would run itself when left to its own devices, but she felt Apu would appreciate that Summer was able to help again.
Of course, she walked in, saw a hug display about zippers, noticed anything with zippers was 50% off today, let out a little sigh and a shake of her head, but it was mostly just relieved that she may have been changed to a small furry rodent, but some things never did.
Today's Squishy Flavors
Rugelach
Shrimp Scampi
Red
Turtle & Canary is open!
Especially since she'd heard from the other squirrels that Prompto had turned into an animal, too, which meant it was just Apu and the usual animals in the store, and, sure, the store pretty much would run itself when left to its own devices, but she felt Apu would appreciate that Summer was able to help again.
Of course, she walked in, saw a hug display about zippers, noticed anything with zippers was 50% off today, let out a little sigh and a shake of her head, but it was mostly just relieved that she may have been changed to a small furry rodent, but some things never did.
Rugelach
Shrimp Scampi
Red
Turtle & Canary is open!
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I will gladly accept cake tho
Good luck man. U got this. Seriously.
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And yes, two hours later, that absolutely was a cake delivery guy showing up with something enormous, pink and sugary. What? Occasionally, Atton could keep his word.
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looking forward to find out if I should house this in celebration or remembrance
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Did it help tho?
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There had also been a lot of arguing.
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Honestly, these days, Summer's therapy sessions were a lot of just venting without doing much of anything, but anyway....
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Saying 'blah blah' didn't make it not true, Rand.
ever get the feeling life would just be easier if we stuck to rock bottom
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no. Not even a little. Fuck rock bottom
She was almost certain there was no such thing as rock bottom, anyway, but she didn't plan on ever finding out, either.
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Whoa, what did rock bottom ever do to you?
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Lather. Rinse. Repeat. Until she finally just came up with:
haven't we had enough of therapy already today?
And she thought she was going to leave it at that, but her fingers seemed to compel her to add:
everyone I've ever known at or around rock bottom is absolutely fucking miserable, atton, and they make everyone else fucking miserable about it, too
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Atton flopped back on his bed, lifting the phone above his head.
when you're at rock bottom, all you have to be is miserable. nobody expects anything from you, you have no responsibilities. you just sit there and be miserable.
always thought it sounded kind of peaceful.
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Nobody just sits there and is miserable. No one is free of responsibilities. Even when you think you are, you drag other people into that shit, and THAT is what rock bottom has done to me
People think rock bottom exists in a vacuum but it really really fucking doesn't
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There was a
different moral choice pathuniverse out there where the Exile had spiraled down into darker places, and Atton would find himself stripped of every layer of warmth and give-a-fuck he ever had, until there was nothing left but thecold emptiness he'd felt as a Sith.
That Atton felt a relief. This one, urged on by a kinder Meetra Surik to embrace his desire to protect the people he cared about, had a thousand feelings dragging him off in a thousand directions. And a permanent headache.
not that it matters. could never sit that still for that long anyway. He'd come close during that half-year where he'd had trouble getting up off the floor, but even then.
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U might tell yourself u didn't. U might even convince yourself and believe it. But u would care.
Otherwise you wouldn't be miserable. You'd just be numb.
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It shouldn't have hit as hard as it did, but it did. When he dropped the phone, it was to wipe a little snot and moisture off of his face with the back of his arm. "Yeugh."
See? This was why texting was better, most of the time.
Oh, now who sounds like a subject matter expert.
This was one of those secret 'Influence gained: Atton' moments.
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But Summer was at least feeling glad that there'd been that pause before he responded, and just hoped that that meant...something.
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Okay, Atton actually did know. Specifically, that he was longing for a time where he could have walked away from all this, where people had to go and find him and drag him back in order to stop him from doing all that walking.
But nope. He was doing things like scheduling appointments with his therapist and texting Summer about what was going on because he didn't particularly want to be that guy anymore. It was all just... stupid nostalgia. For a time where he had, objectively, been completely miserable.
For a second that surge of wry affection made him want to text her a thank you, but he caught himself before he did that, too.
yeah probably, but then you wouldn't get to bitch about doing it for free, he texted, and wondered whether he should ask her if she ever watched that old YouTube video or not, or if it was best to just leave this topic behind.
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yeah good point. i do like bitching about doing it for free.
And Summer would keep doing it for free, too, and gladly, if it kept more people she cared about away from rock fucking bottom.
and most things really
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It was probably better not to talk about it.
I have noticed that about you, he texted. You're welcome, by the way. I do my best to give you fresh new fodder every week.
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Yeah one thing I never have to worry about around here is a lack of good bitching content, that's for sure. so yeah.
The smallest of pauses between it? Maybe.
Thanks.
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He blew out a breath and dropped the phone again, staring up at the ceiling.
Right. Portal tomorrow confirmed. Now he had to figure out what to say, exactly. Seriously, his life had been so much easier before.